Covid19 Outbreak Draft

Covid 19 blast

Since Corona broke out in India, I've been experiencing strange anxiousness that I've never experienced before. I've been afraid of a lot of things that are out of my control, like flying, traveling by train/bus at night because it always scares me what if the drivers fall asleep or the vehicle loses control, going to the mountains but only by car because I think the bus is too big and will lose its balance, and so on. I've been scared of thunderstorms and strong winds because I know I can't control them and nature is something beyond everything. All of these different kinds of fears gave me different kinds of anxiety, but when this corona happened, my body began to function on its own, independent of my mind's control. Even if I wasn't paying attention, my stomach began to drop, my heartbeat increased, I had difficulty breathing, and I felt like I was going to cough at any moment. I'll dash to the kitchen and grab a glass of hot water or pop a clove into my mouth. I'd look for a distraction or ping a friend or family member, and then I'd start praying with folded hands or chanting/meditating.

Foot in the door of reality

It's not that I hadn't realized how unpredictable life is, but this time when I see the entire world coming to a halt is something my imagination of apocalypse (may sound exaggerated, but this is how it appeared to me) In this time, I happened to have this deep practical thought that if anything happens to me or my family; what I have to choose or must do. I felt a strong sense of detachment from everyone, but a strong attachment to myself. While all of this was or will be happening, I was aware of and felt each and every sense. My daughter recently asked me, "Mumma, what if this happens to me?" I can't live without you; you must accompany me; I can't live on my own. I joked, "Arey beta, I'll just kiss you and become Covid positive as well." She could live in peace after hearing my words, but I couldn't. I couldn't imagine myself coughing so hard, getting into that van where I don't even know if I'll ever return, how they'd treat me, what they'd do to me, and so on. I can't stop looking at my daughter's forehead, wondering if she has a fever right now!!

Military action during the war

When reality hit me hard 20 days ago and I couldn't stop myself from researching Covid 19 in-depth, I was certain, as was the rest of the world, that there is no cure for this disease and that the only thing left for me to do is take precautions and preventive measures. When I visited Yog gram (a naturopathy center founded by Guru Ramdev in Hardiwar) two years ago, one thing I was convinced of was that our "stomach is the second brain in our body," and since then, instead of looking for Allopathy, instant solutions, or crying over health issues, I have begun to take care of my stomach. Prior to receiving advice from diet experts, doctors, and WhatsApp University. (I am not an expert in any way; I simply enjoyed learning about what food does to your body.) The results of my extensive research left me with :

1) I can only be away from day-to-day human interaction for so long

2) or I can boost my immune system sufficiently

Following that, I and my family began to consume adequate amounts of water, as well as Vitamin C, Tulsi, Garlic, Onion, Giloy, and kadha (Indian style green tea made of Clove, Cinnamon, Cardamom, black pepper, ginger, and Tulsi) every day, as all of these either boost your immune system to fight cold and flu or have anti-bacterial properties. I may not be able to stop my frequent anxiety or the Coronavirus, but I can certainly strengthen my body to fight it for a while. In the worst-case scenario, it may not save me, but it is keeping me optimistic to some extent.

Conclusions from deep within

One of my major takeaways since 2014 has been, "In the end, things do fall into their proper place." And, if you look at the time, things are falling in the right places in a variety of ways. (at least as far as I can tell) In the same way that "before the beginning of great brilliance, there must be chaos," the chaos of coronavirus may bring some major wisdom at both the individual and societal levels, but we must first go through this chaos in order to bring resettlement.

During these times, I noticed how the world was changing and how things were falling into place. As you can see, all of our important things have ceased, while the one that was necessary for our survival is continuing. People are spending time with their loved ones, eating healthy, working from home with balance, assisting their partners, less garbage outside, less human on the road, more concerned about life, less concerned about money, holding onto each other but also loving with detachment, maintaining hygiene, being in the limit, less bullshit in the name of freedom of speech, more empathy, animals and birds are roaming freely and humans are staying in their limits, the water looks clean, the sky looks clear. Whatever could never be stopped has completely stopped, people who were supposed to be essential for us as doctors to save our lives, police to protect us, farmers or sabji wala, doodhwala to feed us... What was necessary is now important and in its proper place.

You will see actors/actresses no longer trying to save the Constitution, pseudo-feminist and so-called liberal intellectuals saving their asses first, no more patriarchy issues are a concern, no more left-wing or right-wing drama on the road, no news channels debates over anything, With different times, different kinds of problems have arisen in the form of people distancing the saviors' (health workers, police officers) and other people who are serving the country in the midst of crisis. Everyone is focused on the king of the country, our Prime Minister, and obeying his instructions/orders without question or second thought, or even if there is one, they must shut up and focus on their primary business of staying inside their homes to save themselves and others. They say that in the worst of times, we get to see who is on our side and who isn't, who supports you, and who opposes you. We're all seeing the same thing.

It's a scary or selfish thing to say, but people need to be scared for a while longer. They have a lot of time to take their lessons. As a result, this planet may continue to be a better place to live for some time.